New Road Ahead

Let me first say that I really appreciate all the love and support everyone has shown me. During the hard times, you find out who your true friends really are. I am extremely lucky because I happen to have a lot of them. Thank you.
Okay, now to get this out of the way. I am feeling better about things now, and each day brings a little more hope and solace with it. In fact, (Dan, you’re going to like this), I’ve had what I like to call “an epiphanous experience of pure religiosity (it sounds better if you say it out loudJ.” In other words, while cooking dinner the other night (okay, “cooking” is a little bit of a stretch), I had a switch flip on in my head that made me realize that this is not who I am. I am a person who enjoys a lot of the small things, who always thinks that tomorrow is going to be better than today, and who finds humor, fun, and beauty in random things. I can thankfully say that I am back to my old self. I will no longer mention Ania, no more talk about Ania, and no more thoughts about Ania (okay, maybe an occasional thought here or there). I feel a lot better and am beginning to enjoy Poland again, despite being alone. Life doesn’t have to suck. We have the power to make it what we wish. I believe all the strength everyone has given me is finally manifesting itself.
Rain is still in no short supply here. I would much rather have snow, although I am not too keen on putting on the snowshoes for 8-10 hours a day again. I am still hoping for a few weeks of sun before winter starts showing itself. The sun actually peeked through the clouds the other day. It only lasted for about 10 minutes, but those minutes were what I had been waiting for and absolutely needed. Hopefully there is plenty more where that came from.
In other news, I found a fresh wolf scat today and a fresh wolf track next to it. That made me feel better (but not really that much). I am planning to go on a hiking trip to the Tatra Mountains (highest part of the Carpathian Mountains, on the Polish-Slovakian border) next week, so I am really praying for good weather then. I should hopefully have some good pictures to show everyone too, so keep your fingers crossed. Time to get back to my Italian lessons. I know, studying Italian while living in Poland doesn’t make much sense, but nothing seems to these days. Arrivederci.